Moments of mothering
One of the greatest joys is knowing that I’ve parented a person who I think will add value to the world. I have had different ventures in my life that have not turned out as planned (#nothinbutfoods), but I do know for sure that I got this bit right. I’m watching now as she navigates being a working adult. She is enjoying her life as a 19 year old, discovering who she is, and dancing around with dating. There’s been no scandals or dramas to date and other than shoes left in annoying places and the inability to close a cabinet in the bathroom, I can’t complain.
As the world looks on as one disaster after another looms, I take pleasure in daily life. I also want more than anything to see this world be better and do better. I want it to last. I want to see her fall in love, find what excites her, and live this brilliant life she was promised when I brought her into it. I want grandchildren and to count their toes and watch them giggle when they see me smile. I want to watch them graduate from kindergarten, high school, and college. It’s selfish AF, but it’s true. I want to see her my girl get wrinkles and gray hair. I want her to watch me grow old and need her as much as she needs me.
So, I take a deep breath and wipe away the tears and try to put some hope back into my smile